|
talkabouttherain
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Cindy
Location: Waco, Texas, United States
Birthday: 12/13/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading cool books, stories, poems, etc. Watching Law and Order and whatever else just happens to be on TV. Working (aka getting a paycheck). School. Good movies.
Expertise: Bra-fitting, which can easily be translated to "trying to make old, saggy boobs go back to being young and perky." It's a tough job, but someone has to do it.
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  SuperMe1585
MSN: heaven_bound23@yahoo.com
Yahoo:  heaven_bound23
Member Since:
2/19/2005
|
|
| Sometime tomorrow afternoon we will be leaving Small Town, Pennsylvania, for its complete antithesis: New York City. I spent most of my time today taking pictures of hundred-year-old grave markers and attending my cousin's daughter's 16th birthday party. we also spent quite a bit of time with my aunt, went mini golfing (I suck, by the way), and had dinner at the Flying J truck stop. I was unbelievably surprised to find that these fantastic roadside shops and diners exist somewhere other than Texas. For some reason, I thought that only a Texan would name a diner 'Flying J.' I have been proven wrong.
I plan on posting a few pictures next week. | | |
| I am currently on a family vacation which serves the purpose of my brother and me meeting some paternal family members that we have never met before. Today I gained a few cousins; tomorrow I get an aunt, more cousins, and possibly an uncle. Pennsylvania is absolutely gorgeous. I'm not sure on the name of the town where we are, but it's basically the normal two-horse town (sorry for the Texan expression) somewhere near the New Jersey border. I will give a look at the map tomorrow to be sure. There are so many trees and hills here... more than I'm used to, anyway. the only recognizable thing so far is the abundance of cows, but even they are different breeds than the ones I typically see. More tomorrow. I've been awake since 3:30am, and I'm completely bushed. | | |
| I was going through a few of my subscriptions (people who haven't updated in a good, long while), and I found a rather startling statement on the blog of a girl I knew in high school. I hope she doesn't mind my reference to her; she probably won't even see it considering she hasn't updated in over a year. We'll call her Shelly.
Shelly was posting some answers to a survey:
9. Break someone’s heart or have your heart broken?
I
believe that I have experienced both and neither of them are pleasant.
Anyway, I'm past that point. Once you're married, there's no major
heart breakage.
The first statement in her answer is something with which I agree fully. Also having been on both sides of that equation, I know that they both hurt unlike any other negative emotion. To say that heartbreak is unpleasant is, in fact, a vast understatement.
The second statement is quite arrogant in my opinion. No one is beyond heartbreak. It happens all the time. Believing that the entirety of heartbreak in your life has already occurred does not make you immune to future heartbreak. Sorry.
But neither of those statements were particularly startling. I already knew that her heart has been broken. And I am not surprised at her arrogance; she was always better than most of our peers at almost everything and, rightfully, tends to be a little arrogant without realizing it.
The third statement is the one that made me reread the entire thing. "Once you're married, there's no major heart breakage." This statement is unbelievably naive. I have never known Shelly to be a naive person. She is remarkably intelligent and intuitive. However, I cannot shake the feeling that she has no idea what marriage is about. I know more people who have had their hearts broken by their spouses than unmarried people who have had their hearts broken. To say that heartbreak just doesn't exist (or at least not in a major way) once you're married is, I think, crazy.
Maybe she thinks this because her parents were never divorced and always seem happy together. However, not everyone comes from such a perfect nuclear family. My father is currently married to his fifth wife, and he has had his heart broken by all four before her. My mother has had her heart broken by two husbands and is now married to her third. My grandmother had her heart broken by one husband and has been married to her second for over forty years. If I were to list all of my friends who have had their hearts broken by husbands or wives, we would be here for a really long time.
The point is, I believe that love cannot exist without heartbreak. Loving someone is essentially telling that person to go ahead and destroy you. It isn't required, and it may never happen. But the possibility is always present. You simply cannot go through life believing that you will never be hurt again. That belief is unrealistic and dangerous. If you do not prepare yourself for all possibilities, you will be lost if the worst happens. No one is perfect.
For now, I will remain happily unmarried until that boy of mine and I decide that it's time for us to be married. I'm sure we will hurt each other in the years to come, but I'm equally as sure that we will heal from our heartbreak.
I wonder what other people think about this... let me know..
| | |
| I got the brilliant idea (a couple of weeks ago) to apply for a job at the cable company. Benefits include free digital cable and free high speed internet. Nice.
Other things... It's July 5th, right? Why are people still lighting firecrackers up and down my street? Maybe it's just gunshots. Whatever. Either way, it needs to go.
| | |
| As promised, here are a few people who I like and could potentially call my friends. I don't find it easy to make friends with others. To be honest, I am most happy when I am observing rather than interacting. So without too much introduction, here are a few of my friends.
Freaks and Geeks
Anyone who can say "yes, I play D&D" and not be embarrassed or ashamed is completely worth my time and effort. The sincerity of knowing what you like, knowing your talents, and being unafraid to display them is exactly the kind of sincerity I look for in my friends. I am somewhat strange, myself, and I prefer my friends to be equally on the weird side of life. This category also includes nerds, whose dedication to their specific nerd activities is the type of dedication that I revere, as I am completely incapable of finding one thing interesting enough for it to occupy all of my time. I enjoy seeing qualities in others that I am unable to master. On top of all this, these people likely don't have too many friends and are always willing to take on another. They are typically very nice, funny, and genuine people. They will almost never stab you in the back or forsake you if you screw up.
Low-Level Stoners
Many of my friends (ok, almost all of my closest friends) in high school and college fit into this group quite nicely. Even a few of my family members qualify. The reasons I love these people outweigh any negative things about them. Yes, they are typically lazy and a little dumb, but they will always give you a call to see if you want "a life-changing burrito." And before anybody thinks that life-changing burritos don't exist, they do. Trust me. To be honest, these people are just more fun to be around than most others. There is always interesting conversation with topics ranging from the taste of spit to theology. It just doesn't get much better.
Cute, Dumb People
I don't understand why, but I have a big place in my heart for cute, dumb people. Whether male or female, they are generally very funny, very social, and very well-liked among most of their peers. Because I resist being the center of attention, having these friends allows me to quietly observe and give my input every now and then while they steal the show. Most others find people like this annoying because they tend to have zero common sense and rely on their senses of humor and good looks to get by in life, but I think that every person has a different talent, and if I could get through life on good looks and charm, I probably would. If you ever want to just go out and have a good time, this is the person to call.
Easy Intelligence
My favorite kind of person is unbelievable intelligent and completely humble about being so. This kind of ease challenges me and causes me to want to better myself. I am an intelligent person, but I have always suffered from a lack of desire to apply myself to anything. Because of this, I have become mediocre at many things and have acquired enough knowledge in enough subjects to seem smart to most people, but highly intelligent people motivate me to learn and do more than just enough. They inspire me to become something beyond myself. Even if conversation goes a little beyond my abilities, they try to help me understand.
Brainy Theologists
One of my favorite topics of conversation is theology. I don't mean Christian theology, but theology in general: the study of God. I believe that religious history is just as important as any other type of history because modern society has its roots in religion. Whether we like it or not, religion has formed our world. I love discussing religion with people who love it as much as I do.Whether they subscribe to any religion doesn't matter. You don't have to be religious or spiritual to find these things interesting and relevant. I just enjoy the conversation.
So I hope you enjoyed the list of my friends. For some reason, I found it easier to talk about the people I don't like than the people I do like. Maybe I feel like I need to justify negative feelings, and I don't feel like I need to explain my preferences. Whatever the cause, I apologize for this list being a little less detailed and involved. Maybe I will add to it, but I can't make any promises.
| | |
|